Taking stock of your soul!

God's Boys will be good boys!

How many things do we have in this house? How many steps are in the Thriller video? How many clothes do we fold in a day? How many eggs does it take to feed this family? How many pairs of pants do I have? How many days till the end of the school year? How many years will it be before I am a grown up?
We are responsible for so many things in this life. We are accountable to God, first for our own soul and then for the souls of the women and children that He has entrusted to us. God will hold us accountable for where we carried their minds and where we carried their souls throughout life. It is an awesome responsibility to be a man of God. Prophet, priest and king of your home. You'd better be ready for the challenge. Women and children go to hell everyday because some man disappointed their faith and they could not see God through the shadow of that man.
Men who carouse and carry many women's souls into the gutter are held accountable by God. Forgiveness is sought and God has forgiveness, but there is a price to pay. It is possible that some are preaching peace in the souls when there is no peace. Beware!
When you look into the eyes of a woman and carry her to the heights of love into your soul, you become responsible for what becomes of her soul. Love has a price. The devil deceives us and makes us think that we are okay and that we can just walk away and that there is no consequence to your behavior. God is sovereign! God is love and when we use His good gifts for personal gain. He takes this very seriously.
Be thrilled to be holy.

Thrilling the family!

God's Boys will be good boys!

It is so great that you are always entertaining your siblings with something. Movies, cartoons, little humor things that you have created. Teaching and greeting the children with wholesome stories seems to be your calling. Use it for good. Let the new year bring you greater oportunity to create the things that make the children giggle and gurgle. They try to scream and they see your clown faces. You can get into a person's heart so much further through humor than through sadness. The heart can be seared by pain and by entertainment. Look to use whatever means is available to the glory of God. He has shows around us everyday. Some humorous and some spectacular and some thrilling and enthralling and some just usual. Don't get too used to God's spectacular sunrises and sunsets. He is the Master!

Thrilled for Christmas Eve to finally have come

God's Boys will be good boys!

Movies and animations are on the drawing board. Comedy is everywhere for a hungry mind in a very large family. I am still giggling at Calvin Klein calling me on the phone, because I am your mother. Let us sober ourselves to remember that the God of the universe came down on Christmas to give us access to the Father in Christ. There is fun and games with Christmas. But the truth of God's supreme goodness is still the heart of the story!

Someday at Christmas

God's Boys will be good boys!



Boys will play with folks, like kids play with toys! Come one December, our hearts will see a world where men are free.

Are men free in your house, dear children? That is where we must start with those sentiments. Someday at Christmas...The sentiments of the King of Glory humbling Himself to be the sacrifice that would unite us to God is Peace in our hearts. When we can sacrifice our pride to unite others to ourselves is Christmas in our homes.
Labor and fight, if you must for peace in your heart through Christ and for peace in your home through Christ. This is hard fought for and sacrificial at best. Love, Peace and Joy this Christmas season.

Don't Blame it on the MOONLIGHT!

God's Boys will be good boys!

Young man, you are learning the changeableness and frailty of your own and young women's emotions. God has made you the commander of your own emotions and the emotions of those whose ears you earn a hearing. Earn a hearing! Earn a hearing, first from mother and brothers and sisters and God will lend you more ears.
Where do I earn a hearing? ...From my behavior, conduct, manners and accomplishments. Ears are won by these. Many a man has won a hearing, simply on account of practice of a skill. This is only one way, but a good way. As you apply yourself to the tasks at hand you are earning authority in the home and in the earth.
God said to "Take dominion!" This is not the authority which is earned but grasped. The wildlife and the seas are for us to command authority over on the earth, but not so, our sisters and brothers, we must earn their hearing and not misuse it once achieved.

Stuff that Stops Your Heart!

God's Boys will be good boys!


Thrilled to be healthy,

Boys, Eat your veggies! I am your mother and I am so alarmed that when you are at school you have your own choices and no one to impress you what you should eat or drink. I am old and my heart is what it is. Your young hearts are growing and developing and you need to be concerned about what kinds of fats you are putting into them.
Please eat your veggies!

Thrilled to be a boy

God's Boys will be good boys!

It is going to be a long time that you are a man. You will have decisions to make and stuff to do. Practice being a good boy. It is hard in this season where boyhood and manhood are intermeshing. Learning to monitor your relating and emotions is practice for the real thing. Learning the correct tones of respect and honor that are due to authorities and girls and women around you can get complicated but is important also. Don't let one part of your humanity dominate the other portions. Dance and sing, if you would, work and study, because you must, don't forget to pray and eat; all in moderation, under God.

It is told you, Oh man, what is good and what does the Lord require of thee. But, to do justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.

It looks to me as though boys are looking for attention.

God's Boys will be good boys!

I never saw a boy dance on the steps like Adam Savani. He was doing a dance in front of this little girl and it was cute and friendly and amusing. Not really seductive, I don't think. It looks like boys don't have cute ornaments on them like jewelry and bows and Adam looked like he wanted to be looked at with that kind of cutesy pie thoughts that we often dote upon little girls.
We have to know the difference in our souls between coveting what the girls have and being who the girls are. Dance sometimes loses that distinction. To learn to be masculine, even in your desire for that kind of attention is real and could be good. Beware of emulating the girls to get the attention that they get. God made men to be the pursuer and not the doted on one. There will be the one woman who will dote upon you and fulfill that need. In the meantime, be patient.

A Little Consideration for your mother's poor nerves, please.

God's Boys will be good boys!
1 Peter 2:
11.Dearly beloved, I beseech you as strangers and pilgrims, abstain from fleshly lusts, which war against the soul;

I really do not know how you boys do it? You have to plan and consider and make decisions about things, long before they happen. God has made you to be the initiator and yet your initiation has to be with purity.
I saw, in the Thriller video, something about men that I had never seen before. That even with the best laid plans, when things happen, things happen. It seemed that Michael was saying, he asked this girl on a date to ask her to be his girl and they ran out of gas and they were walking home and every demon in hell came out of his soul and he couldn't control what had happened.
Isn't that just the way things happen. We pray and we plan and then, we run out of gas and that is just it.
What a treatise on mortification of sin, if you wish to mortify your sin, by the power of God, through Christ. We are saved by grace and trying to abstain from the fleshly lusts and stuff happens. God can keep us, but we have to know that there is a demon worse than the power of hell resident with us that would mess up our lives, if let to.
How on earth, can we abstain from earthly lusts with TV and internet and books and other stuff available and not be passive and "let things happen" people? God has remedies for revival and preservation in the Word and they are prayed down and acted upon.
One of my Pastors said, very accurately, that even with the Holy Spirit, some of these things only work with them in your back pocket as you are running for your life. That is the situation that Michael was playing out in the Thriller Video. You really don't know yourself until you see yourself in one of the demons as possible making shipwreck of your faith.
Acting in the positive direction does much to help us avoid the negative stuff.
God, please help us to be decisive and proactive in relationships and still be Obstinately abstinate.

Letting God cleanse the deepest stains. Dealing with LURKING LONGINGS

God's Boys will be good boys!

Jesus is a friend for sinners. He was such a friend of sinners that the holy people of His day were embarrassed at the company that He kept. I am grateful for that because that means He can be friends with me. There is nothing of my sin that I can't bring to Him and He has healing and forgiveness and help and strength and cleansing for the deepest stains. Jesus loves us when no one else can and He can handle the mess in our lives that, even our momma may turn away from. He is the only one that we can trust with that.
There is one good thing about being disappointed by parents at an early age, is that we learn that God is greater and we can only trust Him with the messes in our lives. He promises to be and always shows up as a Father to the fatherless and a Friend to the friendless. Take the lurking longings to Him.

Something is lurking,

God's Boys will be good boys!

God said to Cain, If you do good, you will be accepted but if you don't change your attitude, sin wants to overtake you...Sin wants to pounce you, like a tiger or a lion. (Paraphrased by Jayne) It amazes me that God sees and warns us of things like that. Our attitudes about our brothers. The Proverbs say that there are 6, even 7 things that the Lord hates and things that He CANNOT STAND! The last of the things is "he that sows discord among his brethren." It was so wicked that Cain slew his brother. It was the fruit of the angry passions and jealousy that he was harboring and God told him about it to his face.
I have so often been jealous of my siblings, for one or another reason and it is just wickedness which makes me angry that they have a toy or something that I have not. I had horrible dreams of stealing Muffy, when she was born and I had no children. Brotherly love can also birth brotherly jealousy that is vicious. We need to use the Word of God to fight against all of these alienations against one another.
Thank God for mercy and grace in Christ, which can cleanse us from the deepest sins and stains and make us fit for His service, in spite of our angry passions and bad attitudes.

The Faith of DEMONS.

God's Boys will be good boys!

The Scriptures state that the demons believe and tremble. I can just imagine that Judas had just that sort of faith. He knew that Jesus was a miracle worker and it seemed that he tried to speed up the process of Jesus delivering himself by provoking a direct conflict with the authorities. He did not understand the spiritual battle that they were in and died in disgrace and sadness because the story wasn't playing out the way he had planned it. The demons tremble at the power of God, the demons tremble even at the goodness of God, but they can only enter into the wrath of God and the hard providences of God.
I have seen that when we go through grief we are as close to the devil to accuse God of evil. Sometimes we do and sometimes we don't, but Job's response was the godly response that God has good things for us and hard things for us for some reason and we cannot know that.
Let us beware that our faith imitates Jesus faith and not the devil's faith trembling and responding out of fear alone. Come near to Jesus and He will show himself a friend and a lover of your soul.

Thrilled at Thankfulness

God's Boys will be good boys!

No personal interaction is easy. It cannot be put into a video and imitated in every instance. This is the danger of every generation.
My Dad's grandmother was concerned about the movie generation, not being able to relate and when tv came out and they gave him 20 minute limits a day, so that he would not forget how to communicate with people. We are surely in danger of just such a circumstance. People take the videos that they watch and inject the theorem from them into all of their relationships.
I was wondering what was up with everybody and every preacher man getting into scaring the pants off of everybody trying to scare them into a relationship with them or with God.
I could name 10 or 12 preachers that routinely use some sort of scare tactic in their evangelism attempts. It might work for some people, but I fear that they have been "THRILLERIZED". That video has become so pervasive an influence on the world that people go in and out of churches and marriages and relationship when the THRILL is gone.
God is so far above that type of single resource relating style. We live in a country where we are exposed to so many relating styles that no one need be monolythic.
God give us grace to use the gifts that He has given us richly to enjoy for His glory and for the enjoyment of our relationships. God is love.
I am thankful that we can learn to be thrilled in love and at the goodness of one another and not just away from the torments outside of our relationships.

Thankfulness in Thriller

God's Boys will be good boys!

I am grateful that God is the Lord of the Universe and the Lord of the dance also. Dance is a beautiful way to communicate to one another and to God. David, as a man after God's own heart danced before the Lord in rejoicing for a victory. His love for God was profound and passionate. Dance is not just an end in itself. It is a tool and an art. I love the depth that Thriller has taken me to, in seeing the genius of communication of the reality of the consequences of relating and the beauty of human relationship as well as the complexity. Something is lurking in all of our minds which will be rewarding to the relationships that we are engaged in or which are destructive. God created human relationships and we can grow in them or live in a curmudgeon life of death. We are not doomed to follow in the wicked steps of the generations prior to us in helpless shackles to unhappy relationships. We must and can learn skills to give us joy in our relationships and homes and it starts with, just what Michael highlighted, the mouth and the hands of the corpses spewing gunk or good.

It's Close to Midnight---

God's Boys will be good boys!


We have the promise that God is coming to judge the earth and to redeem His church from the world and the flesh and the devil. The devil and the wicked have the same testimony as we have. When God came in judgement on the earth, it is awesome to see that the names of the people in the godly line were very much the same as the names of the people in the wicked line of people. The meanings of their names were readying the world and warning the earth that God had intentions of destroying it with a flood. Noah wasn't the only person to hear the message. He was the only person to believe the report of the Lord. He who has ears to hear, it often says.
When God came to judge Ninevah, every family in that city had someone who had met the angels and been blinded by the angels for their wicked intentions. They repented not. They all met the angels and God spared only the people who believed that they were angels. How could someone who were not an angel blind a city? We are blinded by humor and blinded by sin. These are not mystical things, they are perspectives that are spun without God. Sometimes, as Christians, we seem to rather see people blind than enlighten their thinking and take their issues to task.
Noah took his world to task and was ridiculed.
Michael Jackson stated in the song it is close to midnight. They all know judgement is coming and God throughout eternity will play those words in judgement in the ears of torment and there will be no comfort, if there is no repentance. Echoing down the halls of eternity, the tormented soul will find no rest from the fact that he knew that the judgement was coming and he continued on in his sins. Even their enjoyments include a message of life to the spiritually alive and a message of torment to those who are spiritually dead.
The trumpet shall sound...and the dead shall be raised. Dead thoughts shall be raised, dead in body but alive in spirit shall be raised, INCORRUPTIBLE!

Forcing the need for a hero by scaring the girl into needing a hug is one way to initiate physical contact, but not the best way. Learning skills that will lead to healthy relationships is delicate. We all have a need for physical touch. Healthy touch is good and life giving, unhealthy touch is sin and sinful. Love means learning to communicate effectively in every relationship and put the appropriate communication with the right person. What did you learn from THRILLER that helps your communication style and what did you learn that will hamper your relationships?

Dancing to the beat of a different Drummer...

I finally saw the "Thriller" video. The original, by Michael Jackson and the new one by Adam Savani. What an amazing genius was that Michael Jackson to put those thoughts and words and dance steps and costumes together. I must be the very last person in the world to have seen it. He won numerous awards. My sister imitated it in her High School musical contest and I ran to try to see it and missed it then and I never did see it.
The Scriptures say that he who sows to the flesh shall reap of the flesh corruption. Michael (on purpose, or by accident) re-enacted this spiritual truth perfectly.
Here he is, with the girl that he loves and asking her to be his girl and he is turning into the picture of corruption, from a hug. We can't seem to help it. We intend to do good to this person, for the rest of our lives and our passions get the best of us and we destroy every intention that we have had toward this relationship and toward this person. Death and destruction ensues..."The Funk of the AGES"...
"How can a YOUNG MAN keep himself pure?" says the Psalmist in Psalm 119;9 That is the question in THRILLER. How do I not mess this up? How can I keep this relationship for the rest of my life when every wicked impulse within me is urging me to mess it up? The Psalmist doesn't leave us at the question. Michael doesn't answer the question.
Incorruptible?
Do we want to reap corruption of the flesh, or do we want to consume one another in our relationship? NO! What does the Psalmist mean-By taking heed according to your Word. How can a Word keep me from festering up all of the FUNK of a thousand generations and all of the disability of fathers and forefather and mothers before me? That is the question we raise. I love how he (Michael) had pieces of their bodies' fall off and gunk coming out of their mouths and festering sores on their faces and bodies as they danced to the beat of generation after generation before. This is LOVE? I asked you to be my girl and I get this? and you get this? Where do we go to find help and peace and the solace that God intended in our households?

I met some boys who seemed to feel alone in the

world. I cannot even imagine the sadness of not knowing the man who is leading your mother. There were some boys I met who expressed that sentiment to me. The sense of violation and challenge, as though one must defend the honor of his mother and his home, were very strong in the room. How can a man find peace in his heart, when he is distressed with such cares? I asked God in prayer and in my scripture searching. I thought of King David, who endured the violation of forgottenness and minimization in a large family and he reminded me in the Psalms, "When my father and my MOTHER forsake me...then, the Lord will take me up." It was as though God himself takes the hand of such a young one; the fatherless, the widows, the oppressed, the brokenhearted and carries those weakened states of heart in his own bosom, like the shepherd. David said to God, in a sense, if I died, it would be to my parents' as though one of these sheep had died, that's how much they care about me. God let him know, that might be the case...but I am the Shepherd of the sheep and I care and would never eat you. God is good. He knows our frame and we can find peace in our saddest condition, because of the care and concern of our creator and more than this, in Christ we have a heavenly advocate--lawyer, to plead our case to the heavenly Judge of the universe.


































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favorite recent quote, share w/ Enoch
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My Favorite recent quote:





In the end, that's what this election is about. Do we participate in a politics of cynicism or a politics of hope? John Kerry calls on us to hope. John Edwards calls on us to hope. I'm not talking about blind optimism here -- the almost willful ignorance that thinks unemployment will go away if we just don't talk about it, or the health care crisis will solve itself if we just ignore it. No, I'm talking about something more substantial. It's the hope of slaves sitting around a fire singing freedom songs; the hope of immigrants setting out for distant shores; the hope of a young naval lieutenant bravely patrolling the Mekong Delta; the hope of a millworker's son who dares to defy the odds; the hope of a skinny kid with a funny name who believes that America has a place for him, too. The audacity of hope![7]





The Audacity of Hope, Barack Obama

This was a brilliant canvassing of American examples of struggle against odds. We rarely find people that are willing to put aside their own peevish sense of paternal loyalty to acknowledge the universal and important lessons from the human struggle on varied levels and vicissitudes. In my opinion he could have delved deeper into the reality of struggle and overcoming but in a synopsis, this was superb.





Rudy is still my favorite! He is a lover and a fighter and he helps me understand why there is a long way to go for this human race in terms of what is leadership. The passion to lead and the passion to win and the passion to unify is necessary for the growth of the nation. I am afraid that this sublime and waiting on the world to change generation will deteriorate into a live and let live world of everyone defending his own feudal rights and exempt us all from the responsibility of change. That is what is dangerous in Hope being the campaign slogan. Hope is a passive word. Hope is a let it happen word. Fight and make it happen. Fight and unify and grow us up is what we need. Nothing happens sitting and hoping. Letting the powers that be continue on their merry way is the way the bullies maintain their lots. Lot was one who gave in a capitulated to the perverse and ultimately it ate him and his family up, even though they were spared the ultimate judgment. Abraham was prevailing in prayer and he was active in moving and forbearing with youngers ( he allowed Lot the first choice of preference in where to set up camp. Meaning that Abraham had respect for his inferiors as well as superiors. I am reminding myself today to give due respect to my children in descending or ascending order based on age and to give them times of equality and even preference in areas where they are far more excellent than I am. This is difficult and humbling. To actually attribute to them the respect due to their character and maintain authority as a parent. Listen to the transparency message by Chanski to remind yourself of the right of passage to your 21 year old and to stop stifling her spirit. Holy Spirit help me to treat my children with due respect!

Am I My Brother's Keeper?

Read the Passage in Scripture of Cain and Abel in Genesis. Where do we get that question, am I my brother's keeper? In what way am I my brother's keeper and in what way am I not my brother's keeper?


I am made in the image of God. I am made to learn about the God who made me and imitate Him. I am made to do good and shun evil. Not just to react to the circumstances around me. I am made to see God in my human relationships and to see God above my human relationships. The difference between aggression and righteous indignation is who are we fighting for. Fighting for anything but God's principles and purposes is the wrath of man. King David could see his parents and his king as under God, to be honored, but only God to be defended and life to be defended and preserved. 2 questions to ask yourself before you fight, am I defending my life or the life of some one that I love? Am I defending the real and disputed honor of God? otherwise leave it alone.